Here are the lyrics from Pretend with my edits
Pretend You Love Me, by Sonny and the Sunsets
We've been through some things together
Pretend you love me
Pretend, pretend you care
I saw you walkin just the other day
Ive got some feelings I cant shake
Pretend you love me
Pretend, pretend you care
I dont know, I dont know what Im doin anymore I look in the mirror, I dont see, I dont see me anywhere
Now I have waited, dont go and despair
Will I dare?
If you see me wonderin where Ive been
Pretend you love me
Pretend, pretend you care
Pretend pretend pretend...
My edited version:
Weve been through some things together
You never did love me
Don't pretend you care
I saw you walkin just the other day
You smiled your smile and with a big hug, said:
"Oh, it's so good to see you! How are you doing?"
Well, Ive got some feelings I cant shake
And thanks for the ride, lady
I want people to kill me a lot.
I am stuck in a downdraft and I haven't found the handle
You were never any good
And I Wilbured it up and over again and again
For twenty years I took your shit whenever you dealt it out
Insulting me and humiliating me over furniture and endless stupid shit.
I never did one thing really bad until I lost my job
You made it clear you were no comfort
"You disgust me," you would say to me.
And then I did some stupid stuff with money and lies.
I was protecting myself from you.
You who would find me beaten, bloody and scared.
Then ridicule me and treat me like shit.
Say, "I can't be nice. That is not what I do. Get out if you can't stand it."
Sounds like crazy kindness now.
I chose to stay.
I saw such wonderful things in you and your family.
Always more to do. Always more disasters to avert and hope to store.
I was your servant. And you can fire servants. So what's the big deal?
You committed to a different arrangement than me.
So thanks for the ride, lady.
Maybe you are protecting me with your silence.
I know I am you with mine.
So for the time being, don't ever hug me. Don't ever touch me.
And don't without many more frank discussions first, ever ask me how I am doing.
Because it is still very unclear if I am going to pull out of this one. Knowing that you couldn't think less of me either way.
Don't say you love me
Don't pretend you care
I dont know, I dont know what Im doin anymore
I look in the mirror, I dont see, I dont see me anywhere
Now I have waited, drunk on despair
Will I dare?
If you see me. Do something to help. Send in a friend.
Don't say you love me
Don't pretend you care
Pretend pretend pretend...
